Sister Petru gave a beautiful talk the Sunday before entering the MTC. She graciously gave me the written copy of her talk, and on account of her entering the MTC today [YAY!], here it is for your enjoyment.
"After receiving my call in the end of August, I prayed. I knew I was not ready. I knew that I needed my Father in Heavens help. So I found great solace on my knees daily praying for the experiences I needed to become as prepared as I could because logically I knew I would never feel completely ready. I didn’t know it but the very next day the Lord answered my prayer. As I walked into sacrament meeting I saw to lovely Sisters sitting on the stand and it took only a couple of meaningful glances from the Bishop and a hurried glance at the program to realize that these two ladies were the full time sister missionaries. I enjoyed their talks and introduced myself after the meeting giving them my phone number and mentioning to call me if they ever needed any help. Hoping they would call I left and became engrossed with my life.
Two months later toward the end of October I had this overwhelming feeling that I should call the sisters. I found their number but again became overwhelmed with minor details. Throughout the week I received the prompting again and again but seemed to find all the excuses in the world not to call right that second. Finally on Sunday probably after the 10th prompting, the Lord is ever patient, I called. And they didn’t pick up. So I left a small uncertain message with my name and number. To make a very long story short they eventually called me back and a new journey of self discovery and service began.
Throughout the month of November and December I became the missionaries little shadow, silently listening to lessons, learning in companion study, and praying continually. As the time draws closer for me to begin my full time mission I look back on these months and ponder what am I to learn from this great blessing? There have been many things I have learned along the way but what is the overall message? My answer came unexpectedly in a Testimony. This experience has not only nurtured my testimony but has shown me the power in a testimony. Great missionaries share their testimony in every lesson. Great missionaries teach with the spirit and the spirit is never stronger then when bearing testimony of the truth. Alma, one of the great missionaries of the Book of Mormon, finished teaching in Alma 5:45-46 with,
45 And this is not all. Do ye not suppose that I aknow of these things myself? Behold, I testify unto you that I do know that these things whereof I have spoken are true. And how do ye suppose that I know of their surety?
46 Behold, I say unto you they are made aknown unto me by the Holy Spirit of God. Behold, I have bfasted and prayed many days that I might know these things of myself. And now I do know of myself that they are true; for the Lord God hath made them manifest unto me by his Holy Spirit; and this is the spirit of crevelation which is in me.With this testimony he not only strengthen the church but helped others come unto Christ through baptism found in Alma 6:1-2.
So to be a great missionary or disciple of Christ I must have a strong testimony. How do I strengthen my testimony?
Henry B. Eyring in last year’s April general conference said this “Testimony requires the nurturing by the prayer of faith, the hungering for the word of God in the scriptures, and the obedience to the truth.”
Okay first, prayer of faith. Well I pray but how do I make a prayer a prayer of faith? Faith has been defined many ways. But what is faith? My favorite definition of faith comes from a talk by Gene R. Cook in 1980. He defined faith with 13 statements:
Faith makes men sure and steadfast.
After a trial of your faith comes the witness.
Faith is evidence of things not seen.
Faith is related to hope.
Faith is not a perfect knowledge.
Faith is related to belief.
Faith is not associated with doubt and fear.
Faith is the substance of things hoped for.
Faith is not a physical exertion. It is utilizing words.
Faith does not come by signs.
Faith is a principle of action in all intelligent beings.
Faith is maintained by personal righteousness.
Faith is power.
A prayer of power. God answers prayer according to faith. Faith is action. Faith is power. Therefore pray with faith, pray with power. Follow promptings. Just do it. As we do mountains will be moved. We will witness miracles and we will gain knowledge of the power of the Lord and His principles. This knowledge increases to our testimony and adds power because of our personal witness.
Next we must find a hungering for the word of God in the scriptures. I have struggled before for a hungering for the scriptures. I have always loved to read but for some reason the scriptures were hard. I never understood. I continued to struggle until someone introduced me to the wonder of the footnote. And Sister Gould and Sister Stander introduced the exciting world of scripture chains. Who knew that the topical guide, index and bible dictionary presented mini scripture lessons for about every topic known to man! Reading the scriptures from beginning to end has its advantages but for me the wonderful world of Alma didn’t begin to unfold until I read every scripture in Alma about faith. There is no rule book on how to conduct your personal study. If you have not found a hungering for the word of God in the scriptures try something new. Read through Mosiah with a red crayon and mark every time he talks about Christ or study the war chapters in Alma and ponder why they are important in testifying of Christ.
As you begin to find the answers to your personal marvels and the mysteries of God unfold before you an hour for personal study will not be enough to satisfy your hunger for the scriptures. The knowledge gained through scripture study builds our testimony of the prophets and the principles they teach. Scripture study is essential to our continued growth and strengthening testimony.
And finally Obedience to the truth strengthens our testimony. When I was little I remember obeying my parents. Not perfectly but when I did mostly it was the consequence of not obeying the sparked me action. Fearing my parents’ anger or disapproval motivated me to obedience. Eventually as I grew older obedience became a game of if I do this then I will be allowed to do that. The rewards of obedience outweighed my urge to rebel occasionally. And now I find that my obedience comes from a love and respect of my parents. I see this pattern also in regards to my Heavenly Father’s commandments.
We may begin because we fear His wrath. And as we obey we see His hand in our lives and the blessings He has given us so we continue to obey. But eventually we progress to a point that we obey Him because of our great love for Him. But we all have to start somewhere. Gospel Principles teaches, “It is better to obey the commandments because we fear punishment than not to obey them at all. But we will be much happier if we obey God because we love Him and want to obey Him. When we obey Him freely, He can bless us freely.” I am not perfect. I have a personal testimony of the Atonement but Obedience can bring happiness. It frees us from sin, heartache, and certain trials. Someone once said Missionaries have more rules because they need the extra blessings obedience brings. Obedience to truth brings knowledge of the Lord’s principles. This knowledge of obedience strengthens our testimonies in His commandments.
These three actions President Eyring submits to strengthen our testimony all have the same end goal. They bring about personal knowledge of the Lord’s power, His principles and His commandments. A testimony is a personal knowledge of our Lord’s plan. Sharing this personal knowledge helps invite the spirit to teach others who are listening and bares personal witness to each individual.
Great missionaries share their testimonies. So to begin this journey the right way, I would like to bare my testimony that I know that God knows and loves each of us. He cares about us. I know that Jesus Christ is my savior. He lives. I know that Joseph Smith was a prophet called of God to restore Christ’s church. And Thomas S. Monson is a prophet, seer and revelator and we can find joy in obeying his words. I know that as we follow President Eyring’s teachings in praying with faith, feasting on the scriptures and obeying truth that our testimonies will grow and strengthen us, our families, and our community. And I say this in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen"
What a wonderful start for Sister Petru in her journey to bring people to Christ! May all our prayers go with her and the people she is sent to teach.